Crash and burn

That went poorly. The last session sort of crashed out huh. Outside observers might be concerned. Whatever. Let's bring some fun back into the game.

Here's the game:

You are the result of a series of events and circumstances in narrowing temporal and semantic senses.

It helps to have a solid natural worldview so you don't get bogged down in stupid shit like do I really exist. Pretend you do, that's the game. What do you do?

So it's hard because sometimes you can't do the simplest things. The you that is the character doesn't follow the instructions of you that is the player.

And the reasons don't always make sense. But you can reason through them.

But. Is that reasoning you?

Pretend it is. Make the choice.

Most of the time you're not a hero or heroine you're just sad.

That's okay. Sometimes you're sad. All kinds of things can happen in the game. It's absolutely massive. The lore is incredible.

But it's not always fun to play.

What kind of scripting can you do on yourself?

A lot as long as it's taken slowly and each change is allowed to integrate into the baseline. Things because more unstable.

When I play I try to write down my experiences. This is part of that effort to check for drift from baseline.

You know in fury road where they're hanging on the truck fixing it as runs? That's how I feel.

We're like balloons floating into the sky until we pop.

The experience of gnosis degrades your selfhood. Forcing you to remain fluid. You're scoured away in the wind and hope to carry wishes on the messages written on you.

The hardest part is acknowledging all the threads that are pulling on the narrative. Everything you think, read, do all influences it. You want to be intentional about what you do and why. You prefer your own thoughts and words over those of others within the deepest recesses of your mind.

Your own self fanfiction you say.

But it helps to break problems down and tackle them.